I love surfing around blogland and ooh-ing and aah-ing at all of the beautiful spaces and creative projects that incredibly talented bloggers come up with. There's so much crazy gorgeousness floating around on the world wide web that you could spend weeks on end just marveling at it all. It truly is amazing.
But even though I enjoy basking in all the Pinterest-worthiness, I also must admit that I sometimes feel like I just don't measure up, that I'll never measure up to that person's perfect house or the amazing activities that other blogger has planned for her children or another's perfectly styled outfits and put-together hair and makeup (as I sit here writing this during my kids' afternoon nap, still in my PJ's with yesterday's eyeliner smeared below my eyes...true story). I sometimes start to wonder if I'll ever be "good enough."
Woah, hold it right there. That's when I know it's time to shut the computer, step away from my iPhone, and take a couple minutes to put things back into perspective. The decor in my house, beautiful or not, doesn't define who I am. My children don't have to look and act like perfect angels for me to be "enough." I don't have to be wearing the latest trendy styles and look perfectly put-together to have worth. You see, my worth was defined the moment that Jesus Christ decided that I was reason enough for Him to take my sin upon Himself and die for me so that I wouldn't have to spend eternity separated from God. Because of Him--and not because of anything I've done--I am enough.
You know what that means? God loves me whether my house was featured in Better Homes & Gardens or if I don't have one single thing hanging on my walls. God doesn't love me any less on the day that I let my kids watch TV all morning so I could finally get all of the laundry washed and folded than on the day I planned a fun playdate or took them to the zoo. God thinks I'm as beautiful when I'm wearing no makeup and look totally disheveled and when I get all dolled up to go out on a date with my hubby. How freeing is that?!
That's not to say that God doesn't care about beauty--He does! He created it. He defined it. He gave us the ability to recognize it and the talents to create it ourselves. But He also doesn't determine our worth by what we look like on the outside, but by who we truly are--redeemed children saved by His grace.
So I've determined that any time I start to feel like I'm not "good enough" or if I feel that twinge of envy coming on, I'm going to adjust my thinking and instead be thankful. I truly have so much to be thankful for--thankful that I don't have to constantly try to measure up because God has that all taken care of, thankful for my sweet little family and our parents and siblings and friends who love us, our home, our church, our good health, our safe and free country--I could go on and on.
My attitude of anxiousness about what I don't have needs to become an attitude of thankfulness for what I do. Otherwise I will spend a lot of time being miserable because there will always be someone with a bigger, more beautifully decorated house than me. There will always be a mommy who does more creative activities for her kids than I do. There will always be that little fashionista whose outfit is more put together than mine (particularly with my recent track record of donning yoga pants and a t-shirt...). But that's not what life is about. And for that, I am thankful.
And, speaking of being thankful, there is certainly a lot to be thankful for in our family this week! Earlier this week, my hubby celebrated the big 3-0! I cannot believe I'm married to a 30 year old! 😉 We started dating when I was 18 and he was 19, so I think in my mind we'll always be those ages. Not only am I thankful that for the next 11 months, I can rub in the fact that I am in my 20s and he is in his 30s (haha), but I am also thankful that God put him on this earth to be (among other important and wonderful things) my partner in life and my best friend. I am truly blessed to have him.
And just when we finished one birthday celebration, we started gearing up for another-- our darling "baby" Caleb turns two years old today. I think he will always be a baby to me because he's the baby of our family and I'm in denial that he is growing up, but I guess I'm going to have to at least partially concede that he is now a toddler and is growing bigger, more
beautiful handsome, and continuing to amaze me every single day. So, SO thankful for this sweet little man!
What are you thankful for today? (Hey, it's like Thanksgiving in July! 😉 )